ARIZONA!
Mesa, Arizona, to be precise. Homeland of Cool Apa. I've pictured this day for six weeks or more and now we're here; I've thought about the Direction I've received over and over to come, and now we are here.
Now the real adventure begins.
For the next undetermined amount of time, we are combining two very independent, very different families into the same household. For then next while, Cool Apa and I need to share our room with both girls which requires alterations in our very comfortable, established bedtime routine. On that note, most of our 'very comfortable, established' life will change, not just in the little day-to-day details, but in many other ways as well; I'd like to think those ways are good.
For example, I got to see and talk to Cool Apa's Aunt; she is the mother of his favorite cousin/best friend/brother who wasn't born into his family. I have always liked her and always feel comfortable around her. As we parted ways yesterday (actually last Monday), I had this neat feeling: I get to see you way more often now because we're here to stay: that's nice.
Even with all the good things, this is going to be an emotional change for me: stress about living with in laws, being away from home, and getting a new routine down under someone else's roof; not to mention how well I don't do with change. The last move took me months to recover from and stabilize my emotions and mood. Add on that, I'm a newbie to Arizona. I did live south of Tucson in late June to early August 2009, but I don't think that was long enough to truly appreciate all the little nuances of living in this hot, hot, hot hot hot hot hot hot hot place!
I'm still running on faith. I find that I need to exercise more and more faith with each step. I kind feel like this:
I have obeyed, I'm in the spot where God lead me, and I know I don't know where to go: there is still darkness and so many unanswered questions ahead of me.
When is Cool Apa going to get a job?
WHERE is Cool Apa going to get a job?
Will we be able to buy a house? Or should we rent?
How long will we live in Arizona? I don't want to move all the way down here to move all the way back up, but I have to trust in God.
I have to muster up more faith and keep moving forward, especially during this "storming" phase now and coming up.
But we're here! We did it.
-Cool Mamma
Now the real adventure begins.
For the next undetermined amount of time, we are combining two very independent, very different families into the same household. For then next while, Cool Apa and I need to share our room with both girls which requires alterations in our very comfortable, established bedtime routine. On that note, most of our 'very comfortable, established' life will change, not just in the little day-to-day details, but in many other ways as well; I'd like to think those ways are good.
For example, I got to see and talk to Cool Apa's Aunt; she is the mother of his favorite cousin/best friend/brother who wasn't born into his family. I have always liked her and always feel comfortable around her. As we parted ways yesterday (actually last Monday), I had this neat feeling: I get to see you way more often now because we're here to stay: that's nice.
Even with all the good things, this is going to be an emotional change for me: stress about living with in laws, being away from home, and getting a new routine down under someone else's roof; not to mention how well I don't do with change. The last move took me months to recover from and stabilize my emotions and mood. Add on that, I'm a newbie to Arizona. I did live south of Tucson in late June to early August 2009, but I don't think that was long enough to truly appreciate all the little nuances of living in this hot, hot, hot hot hot hot hot hot hot place!
I'm still running on faith. I find that I need to exercise more and more faith with each step. I kind feel like this:
When is Cool Apa going to get a job?
WHERE is Cool Apa going to get a job?
Will we be able to buy a house? Or should we rent?
How long will we live in Arizona? I don't want to move all the way down here to move all the way back up, but I have to trust in God.
I have to muster up more faith and keep moving forward, especially during this "storming" phase now and coming up.
But we're here! We did it.
-Cool Mamma
