First off, we decided to move out of our student housing apartment at the end of June. We don't get kicked-out until July so why a month early? We both just felt this push to move, and when both of us feel that kind of push, I know it's got to be from the Lord. It just feels like He's guiding us, but we need to get moving so He can tell us which direction and speed to go. So we put in our 30 days notice and are looking. Scary.
I'm THRILLED to be leaving my 800 sq foot, no AC, cinder-block, one bathroom, no washer/dryer, incredibly tiny kitchen, poor excuse for carpet apartment.
I am quiet MELANCHOLY to be leaving our little neighborhood. I love the community, how everyone comes out to play or watch volleyball, and how one child playing at the playground can attract all the other children and mommies to come play. Apa and I have lived in student housing, and the same ward, for all but 3 months of our marriage. We brought Starlet home here. We've hidden all our junk in every nook and cranny here. We've met, cherished, and said goodbye to so many people from all over the world. *Sigh.*
(Love Megamind. I'm not sure why we do not own that movie.....)
Second, Cool Apa got a call from his manager at his internship this morning saying that he had something he wanted to discuss that could possibly be exciting news! Cool Apa and I immediately thought: FULL TIME JOB OFFER!! YAY! The search for a job would be over! The answer to "where are we going?!?" finally come! The peaceful feeling of knowing we can be in the area close to my parents and close to my brother when he comes to school!
Well, it was good news. Turns out his internship contract expired last week and his manager scrambled to get it extended.....by only three months. It seems like they want to hire him so badly, but just can't afford him! (Way to go guys, sticking with your budget! We could all learn from you.) Cool Apa thinks that his manager tried to get him hired full time, but just can't. *Sigh.* That is frustrating. Everything is in our favor; the company likes him, the employees like him, Cool Apa likes what he's doing, and the only thing standing in our way!?
Money. Poop. NOTHING we have control over.
At this time, as I seek guidance from Heavenly Father, I just get one word: WAIT. "Pack up your house, Cool Mamma. Move further north. But mainly, WAIT." AGH! SO difficult. But, I also trust that Heavenly Father is weaving our tapestry to our greatest gain, and sometimes that just takes time and waiting on our part.
Third, I'm just bugged at myself. It might have something to do with the fact that I stalled getting a refill of my anti depressants for three days - OOPS! But, little Starlet and I slept in past noon. Gross. She didn't go to bed until 11:30 PM the night before. Gross. We actually got out of the house to visit our friends and their new baby in the hospital! Yay! And run some errands! Yay! After getting a burger and shake at In-And-Out. Oops. Then I took a nap on the couch while Starlet played. Meh. Dinner, which was beautiful, didn't get made and eaten until 10:00 PM. Gross. Starlet is FINALLY in bed at 10:30 PM - 1 hour later than I hoped, but 1 hour earlier than last night! I dunno. I just don't feel very disciplined, very put together, or very on top of things, specifically my homemaking duties and financial planning. Much like this:
HAHAHAHA! And this is why I write! I feel better!
Oh dear, got distracted with dumb videos. Best one:
I love that even though you felt like you may have been writing a negative post, you had me laughing so hard at that cat picture and you ended with a ridiculously funny Batman moment. You are wonderful!!
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